Waiting
It’s been 13 weeks today since J lost his job. I can feel his frustration seeping from every breath. The thing that gets him down the most is that he feels useless. That the 17 years of job experience means nothing in this day and age. And I’m doing the only thing I know how to do.
I pray.
Today, I’m digging into Bible verses to bolster my faith, even though I know God has a plan and a job for J. Fear and anxiety always try to creep into my life. This is where I’m working hard to lean into God. I found this great article 7 Great Promises While Waiting on God for a Job. It’s from the blog/site In the Christian Walk. Once I finish writing this post, I’ll reread the article and take that into my personal devotion time.
Speaking of devotional time, I’m continually amazed at how much I crave it each day. I used to push it off and try to make time. No, I get annoyed if something needs immediate attention right when I’m settling in to read. Several things have changed since I got back on the Jesus Tour.
I have never been a morning person. EVER. Now, I’m up early. For me early is between 7-8:30 AM. This morning I slept in until 9:30. That makes me laugh, because this time last year I didn’t roll out of bed until 10-10:30 every morning. I was a night owl. Now I sleep soundly and wake early. Praise God for that.
I used to try to fit time in for God. Now, prayer and devotional time come before everything else.
When bad things happened, I’d lose it and fall into despair and worry. I’d fret about how much it cost or was going to cost to repair/replace. A couple weeks ago our $1100, 2 year old pellet smoker caught on fire, yet again and it’s destroyed. But, praise the Lord, no one got hurt and damage was contained to the smoker. I simply shrugged and said, “Oh well.” No melt down, no tears, no beating myself up about begging my husband for that expensive grill. I just gave it to God and went on about my day.
So when the negative starts to creep in, I pray and will continue to pray because I know God has a plan. He has a job for J. And while the waiting isn’t the greatest thing to go through, God is changing me and He’s also working on my husband. So praise God for that because J’s salvation is more important at this point in time. That’s hard to type when you’re staring at joblessness. But God is good all the time.
And on that note, I’m off to spend some time with the Almighty. It’s the best time of the day.
Peace,
